Showing posts with label Plus size. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Plus size. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

healthy is the new skinny & natural models on ktla









As some of you know, I'm currently in LA to lend a hand to Katie and Bradford at Natural Models and since I landed on Sunday, we've been keeping non-stop awesome-busy! Yesterday morning, we were actually down at the KTLA News Station and Katie gave an amazing interview. It was such an unbelievable opportunity that they gave us; to promote Healthy is the New Skinny and Natural Models and the message we have to share behind them. This change needs to happen!

Speaking of which, the Healthy is the New Skinny team and PUP (Perfectly Un-Perfected) program will be touring Seattle in February. We're going to be stopping by several different high schools and communities to speak with teenagers, their friends, and their families about positive body image and how to keep their sparkle and we can't wait! Its going to be an amazing journey for an amazing cause! If you'd like to be a part of the program, or even just donate (because of limited government funds, we're funding this tour and our program ourselves), check out this video to learn more!




xoxo Coco

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Back To School + HELLO, NEW FOLLOWERS!

Currently Listening to:
"With You" by Jessica Simpson







(Sunglasses from PacSun, vintage fur collar, vintage 60s blazer, Nollie top from PacSun, cutoff high-waist shorts from Heritage1981, convertible polka-dot clutch/purse from White House | Black Market,
wedge platform shoes from Nine West)

So I had to be up super early for a mandatory orientation for one of my classes and...I wasn't thrilled to say the least. Mainly because of my stomach, which is prone to flareups most in the mornings. Luckily, its an online class, so I won't have to be on-campus much. It didn't make sense (to me, anyway) for an online class to have an in-person orientation, ESPECIALLY on the weekend, but aaaanywaaay...

Unfortunately today was one of THE hottest days of the summer in Sacramento, so I had no choice but to opt for shorts, but couldn't resist wearing my fur or my blazer. I wore my favorite shorts from Heritage1981 that used to be a really great pair of flared jeans, but unfortunately were ruined; and I cut them up and converted them into shorts instead. I was so bummed, because they were literally THE perfect pair of bell-bottoms. Now I'm on a search this Fall for a new pair of flares/wide-legs to replace them. I hate shopping them vintage though, because I can never find any in my size. It seems like the only proper surviving bell-bottoms these days were worn by girls with 24" waists!

I was pretty simple, just tucking in a nice Nollie v-neck that I picked up when I used to work at PacSun. I think its safe to say that they make some of the most comfortable tees there are... I got a bit dressy by throwing on my blazer (a vintage piece that the costumer and home-ed teacher let me keep after our high school production of Pillow Talk a few years back) and some great wedge-style platforms from Nine West that I've had for what seems like forever. I don't know why I don't wear them anymore, because they are wonderfully comfortable as they are stylish. I also broke out my White House | Black Market clutch that's been in hibernation since I got my newer, faux-snake skin one a few months ago. I love the polka-dot ruffles and I love that it's convertible; it can be used as a clutch or a purse by tucking and un-tucking the chain shoulder strap.

Since it was for a business class, they asked us to dress for something of an ideal job we had in mind. Myself, wanting to work in some division of fashion, tried to keep it relaxed, but still stylish. I also couldn't resist the chance to sport another blazer, which as you all know; I'm completely crazy over at the moment. I've been window-shopping like crazy on Romwe (check out the Romwe Blog too!); they have an EXCELLENT selection of trendy suit and boyfriend-style blazers HERE. I pretty much want each and every one!

Also! I wanted to take this time to say hello to my newest followers: Stephanie Matti, a very talented up and coming photographer from the U.K. (I wish I lived closer so I could work with you, Stephanie!!!), equally talented aspiring photographer Emelia Taveras (your work is absolutely beautiful); fierce fashion-lover and blogger Joanna S. (one of my favorites!) from South Poland; and David-Martin of Sick By Trend, a blog that absolutely lives up to its name, with the dish on some seriously sick styles and tasty trends! Thanks so much for following, guys! I love what you do <3

So let me know what you guys thought of my Back to School Ensemble. Would you hire me? Haha! Also, as I'm finishing up the Summer Style Special (there's still a chance to submit your outfit/photos and blog link!), I'm preparing for a Back To School Special as well and would love to see you guys' in your back to school gear! If you'd like to see yourself on MTB, then send a full outfit shot and one detail (up-close) shot, as well as your name, age, and url to your blog link; to cocol@muffintopbaby.com and be a part of the fashion fun!

xoxo Coco

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Bye, Bye, Boyfriend. It's Time That I Be On My Way...

Currently Listening to:
"Bye Bye Boyfriend" by Fefe Dobson






(Watercolor Graphic Print Dress by B R A N D, Layered Chain necklace from Forever 21, Black Tuxedo Blazer by Necessary Objects, Plum Velvet "Dany" T-strap Platforms by Jessica Simpson - not seen - and gifted Black Faux Snake Skin Clutch)

Like many, I hate to admit that I watch the occasional reality show, let alone enjoy them. I have to be honest though and say that one of my absolute favorite shows is TLC's What Not To Wear in which stylists Clinton Kelly and Stacy London ambush unsuspecting fashion victims, fly them to New York, berate them for their fashion sense (or lack thereof) and then pick apart their wardrobe before they send them off into the overwhelming jungle of department stores and designer labels to build a brand new one; one piece at a time.

After a shopping struggle and then a breakthrough with the help of Clinton and Stacy, they send their victims to much sought-after editorial, runway, and celebrity hairstylist Ted Gibson for a luscious new 'do, cut and color included, and commercial and editorial makeup artist, cosmetics line Sally Hansen Natural Beauty co-creator, and The 5 Minute Face author Carmindy to learn first-hand how to enhance their already natural beauty - whether they know they've got it or not! While I'm not sure What Not To Wear is actually considered "reality TV" it is much realer than most other shows out there; and I just love seeing how great people feel about themselves at the end in the big reveal!

Now on the other hand, I don't really WATCH Keeping Up With The Kardashians, but I am a fan of the Kardashian style. I happen to think Kim and Khloe K. are two of the most beautiful women in Hollywood and even though they seem to land a spot on What Were They Thinking on a weekly basis, I LOVE that they always remain true to themselves and that they refuse to dress down their curves! They embrace their bootiful, bodacious bods and they're very inspiring in that aspect.

So when I got an invitation to my friend Matt's wedding scheduled for later this month, not only was I excited that my "older brother from another mother" was finally tying the knot; I was stoked to get to dress up! What's more, when I found out my ex was going to be there, I thought what every girl thinks in a similar situation: "I have to look hot!" And as a bargainista, I descended upon Ross with that exact goal in mind. Being a curvy girl I decided to take a page from the Kardashian style book and try out for myself, Clinton and Stacy's never-failing formula for dressing for success:

Color
+ Pattern
+ Texture
+ Shine
+ Completer Piece
OUTFIT

...and I couldn't be more happy with the results!

I feel amazing in this watercolor-esque graphic dress. It hugs my curves perfectly and supports and CONTAINS the girls (Betty and Veronica) with a deep sweetheart bodice, complete with boning. The side-ruching detail not only creates a great silhouette, but it also enhances my waist in the best possible way. Normally, I'm not one for patterns and even my mom doubted it when I pulled the garment from the racks, but I couldn't ignore this little number when I first saw it peeking through the crowded hangers of otherwise disappointing and underwhelming cotton summer dresses and club-style cocktail-wear.

Now, while you can't see them, I paired the dress with my Plum Velvet Dany Platforms by Jessica Simpson, which matched the purple in the dress spot-on and since they're velvet; they added the texture I needed. In addition, the Tuxedo Blazer added even more texture to contrast the sheen of the dress. Finally, I was able to incorporate a little shine with some accessories: a necklace of layered chains and a faux snakeskin clutch! And voila! An outfit that would make even Clinton and Stacy proud! (And that Kim and Khloe might even sport down the red carpet ;D)

So... What do you guys think of my outfit? Think I'll make my ex jealous? Hehe

xoxo Coco

Friday, April 15, 2011

So What If I Write Your Name, 'Cause You're Always On My Brain


Currently listening to:
"Don't Let it Go to Your Head" by Fefe Dobson


(Basic black tank, Vintage high-waist striped
bikini bottoms, French eyelet cardigan w/scallop-edge collar)

These are from my last trip to L.A. when I shot some more portfolio development work at Natural. The lovely Miss Katie did my makeup and styled together the many pieces from my closet (and Molly's) that I brought. Talented Mr Bradford took them :}

I'm excited that they've asked me to become an Ambassador for Healthy is the New Skinny and I can't wait to be a part of the Perfectly Un-Perfect (PUP) High School Tour they're planning for this year!

Happy Friday! Have a fun and safe weekend, everyone! =}

xoxo coco

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Far Too Long.

Currently listening to:
"DayGlo" by Iglu & Hartly 

I am so, so sorry to all of you, for not updating over the past month. I didn't mean to leave you guys in limbo like that! As you may have gathered from the last couple posts I made, I was not doing well health-wise - I'm still not actually - but I'm working on recovering and getting back into good condition.

Last year, I was diagnosed with a disease called Ulcerative Colitis, which is an inflammatory disorder that's incredibly painful and difficult to manage. It makes even simple things like riding in cars a nightmare for me, and more often than not, I can't keep food (nutrients) in, so I run out of energy quickly. Unfortunately, my health care ran out as well and I've not had the medication to manage it, nor access to any pain medicine, so as you guys can imagine; I've been faced with a lot of hardship lately. But I promise to try and get some good stuff up for you guys, though I warn you it may be sparse for the next few weeks until I get some results back... I appreciate you guys being so patient with me and all the love and support. I hope you're all well and I can't wait to be in tip-top shape for you guys again! :}

In other more fun news, my friends over at Healthy is the New Skinny featured me on the website yesterday!


I was so excited and honored to get a text from the lovely Miss Katie in the morning to tell me about it :} You can read and see more HERE <3

xoxo coco

Thursday, February 17, 2011

You're Sweet, My Dear.


Currently Listening to:
"I Want to Be Evil" by Eartha Kitt







So today I had a really fun photoshoot with a photographer that I've not had the chance to work with before. He's incredibly talented - he takes some of the most beautiful fashion-related photos - and I'm super excited to see the final shots. Most of all, I can't wait to share them with all of you! In the meantime, I thought I'd post some photos from shoot I did last year with Miss Jacqueline Harriet. It was very much so inspired by vintage photos of classic actresses of the Silverscreen era. All the wardrobe was mine, as well I did the makeup and hair (as usual lolol). I also made that red two-piece in the first few shots!

Anyhoo... I got an amazing e-mail this morning from Katie over at Natural and I may be going to LA again next week for a booking. I'm currently on hold for the clients. Keep your fingers crossed for me that I do! :D

xoxo coco

Monday, February 14, 2011

Muffin Top Baby + Natural Models/HITNS Model Search!


Currently Listening to:




I am so excited to announce that Muffin Top Baby has teamed up with its newest sponsors Natural Model Management and Healthy is the New Skinny to find the next fresh faces in fashion!

There is a growing need to represent all shapes and sizes in the fashion industry and Natural Model Management is here to do just that! Natural is an agency created by models for models and every division is led by a professional, working model that not only understands the needs and desires of their models, but is also there to help guide them toward success and long-lasting careers. Their growing list of clientele includes companies such as Forever 21+, Torrid, Lane Bryant, and Levi's...

Natural represents Petite Plus sizes 4-10 and Natural Plus sizes 12+ and values each and every one of them for their natural build and shape. With their Healthy is the New Skinny Campaign with designer Jessica Svoboda, they hope to help change the way the industry views body image. Currently they are searching for not only super models, but super role models - young women who lead happy, healthy lifestyles - to join their growing board of beauty AND brains and to encourage other designers, brands, and companies to embrace every body - because every one is beautiful!


SPECS:

- Petite Sizes 4-10
- Plus Sizes 12+
- Height: 5'7" +
- Great Smiles.
- Must be able to travel to Los Angeles for work.
- Must have a desire to represent the positive body image movement!


So if you've ever dreamed of becoming a model, then here's your chance! Head on over to the Natural Model Management website and submit your stats and photos for consideration! And in the meantime, check out the Healthy is the New Skinny official blog to read more about what this inspiring team is up to!

Good luck! <3

xoxo coco

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

All The Girls Drop A Beat Like This.


Currently Listening to:
"Hollaback Girl" by Gwen Stefani

(LA shines so bright!)

(Kristy looking fresh-faced and beautiful.)

(Alex rockin' her shades)

(The gorgeous Miss Katie H.)

(Kristy, Katie and Alex - beautiful girls, inside and out!)

(Germaine arrives.)

(Katie manning the camera.)

(Germaine's makeup stash!)

(Germaine looking beautiful while she beautifies me and Molly too!)

(The very, very handsome Farley :D)

On the fourth and final day in LA, we headed over to Natural Models to hang and shoot with Katie and the Healthy Is The New Skinny team before we headed back home. It was an absolute blast getting to meet co-owners Katie and Bradford, who were both getting over a big of a cold, but looked fabulous no matter, as well as Kristy, Alex, and Germaine, who are some of the gorgeous faces you can find on the Natural Models board. Not to mention Farley, that positively loveable bulldog you see above...

It was wonderful getting to know all of them. We chatted Katie up a bit who took some photos of us outside of the agency while we waited for Kristy and Germaine. Kristy radiantly rocked "No-Makeup Monday" and Germaine made me look and feel fabulous for a quick video makeup tutorial on the perfect smokey-eye (remember: when in doubt, blend it out ;D) for the Healthy Is The New Skinny blog before we test shot with Katie some more. Needless to say, I'm very excited and I can't wait to share the finished product with all of you! Even more so, Katie asked me to contribute a little to the HITNS blog, which I'm so, so excited to be a part of!

The six hours there and ten hours back were well worth the chance to meet these wonderful women!

xoxo coco

Monday, January 17, 2011

One-Size Doesn't Fit All: Healthy is the New Skinny!

Currently Listening to:
"The Way You Are" by Bruno Mars

Companies using unrealistically thin bodies and overly-shopped models to advertise their products is nothing new, neither are the body issues that have been plaguing us for decades. Ever since the world saw the rise of uber skinny supermodel Twiggy back in the 1960s, healthy and full figures have been forced from the spotlight, never to be celebrated again. In fact, many people today are often ridiculed or mocked for having braces or pimples or cellulite or even a muffin top, and I know that many of you will agree that there is an overwhelming absence of variety, options, and positive body image re-enforcement for girls, women (and even men) everywhere! Luckily, Natural Model Management is here to change that!


(Natural Model & Co-Owner Katie)

Created in part by Plus size model, Katie Halchishick, Natural Model Management is a new agency here to meet the increasingly high demand for healthy, natural figures in the fashion industry. They are an agency created by models for models and are dedicated to upholding a high respect level between themselves, models, and clients. Natural values models and their natural build and body size and encourage models to find a healthy balance in life and in their bodies. Together, they have teamed up with designer Jessica Svoboda to create Healthy is the New Skinny, a campaign to help revolutionize the way we think and feel about our bodies!

(Natural Model Emilee)

What is Healthy is the New Skinny?

This is not about a size. It’s about a movement.

Healthy is the New Skinny is about revolutionizing how we think about, talk about, live in and love our bodies. It’s about putting happiness and vibrant good health first and foremost. Generations of young women have assessed their own worth by how far they are from the ideal of unrealistic thinness. Healthy is the New Skinny believes in natural beauty, the kind that can’t be defined by a hip measurement, but is defined by fitness and fun.


(Natural Model Jennifer)

“You should love your body the way it is.” You’ve heard that message a million times, seen it a million places. But too often, that message is contradicted by the lifestyle and values of the messenger. That conflict between words and actions shows up in the disconnect between the fashion editorials and the articles in many magazines. It shows up in our friendships, where we’re on the receiving end of reassuring messages about self-love from people who clearly don’t love themselves. We’re not stupid – we can tell when someone isn’t practicing what they preach.


(Natural Model Jodi)

The size standards in fashion today are extremely unrealistic, even harmful. They give all of us a distorted image of true beauty, depriving all of us of a chance to see just how good healthy can look. Healthy is the New Skinny wants to show you a new vision of authentic beauty — and we want to show you in a big way.


(Natural Model Kit)

The Healthy is the New Skinny community invites you to join us. You’ll see how our models live out their commitment to natural, healthy, beauty. You’ll be able to interact with our models and our expert advisers, and you’ll be able to share your own story and read those of others. We’re here to support you, inspire you – and just as importantly, be inspired by you.


(Natural Model Merissa)

Healthy is the New Skinny is about fun, it’s about fashion, it’s about changing the world one girl, one woman, one body at a time. Join us...


Lets face it, each body will always differ from another. We're not all meant to be a size 2 and some of us are at our healthiest at a size 12. Some people who pride themselves on eating right and staying in shape are still a size 14! Why? Because that was the shape intended for them. I'm naturally thick in the thighs and I have wide upper body (a swimmer's back). That isn't a weight issue, that is how I'm naturally shaped and I refuse to change who I am to fit another person's standard of beauty. At this point it, shouldn't even be about being skinny or reaching one "ideal" type of beauty, it should be about being healthy and being happy with who you are; and that's exactly what Healthy is the New Skinny is all about.

Since it's creation, Healthy is the New Skinny is already making an impact with it's "Perfectly UnPerfect" Project (P.U.P.), which is an outreach program that presents exciting, powerful multi-media workshops designed to transform how young people think and feel about not only their bodies, but others' as well. The P.U.P. presentations are led by professional models as well as an experienced facilitator that can be tailored to high school, junior high, or college-age audiences. Pulling together and utilitizing their backgrounds in modeling and fashion as well as academia, they share their experiences and struggles for self-acceptance and their message for everyone: we are all perfectly unperfect. (If you would like the P.U.P. Team to visit your school, you can check out their Events page and Contact them to set up a presentation!)

All too often does the fashion industry jump on the "plus" or "healthy" or "curvy" band wagon for publicity, usually only after a dangerously thin model perishes as a result of her under-weight. Then just as quickly as it was here, the "movement" fades out within weeks. The industry is suddenly all aboom with healthy, healthy, healthy and then without warning, you never hear about it again and the industry reverts back to its old self. Personally, I am so glad that someone is finally taking a genuine step toward positive, healthy body image, because we as a society need to accept the idea of just being the healthiest, best versions of us that we can be and promote a healthy lifestyle rather than harmful, unrealistic expectations of weight and figure.

Afterall, beauty isn't one-size fits all!

xoxo coco

* Information and photos are property of Natural Model Management and Healthy is the New Skinny. Thank you to Katie H. for permission to use them! The models pictured are between size 6 and 16 and are sporting the official Healthy is the New Skinny tee-shirt, available for purchase on the official HITNS Facebook page.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Embrace Your Inner Pinup Girl!


Currently Listening to:
"A Pretty Girl Is Like A Melody" by Artie Shaw

As many of you know, along with plus modeling I also dabble in pinup and I'm a firm believer in that every girl should embrace her inner vintage vixen from time to time!

(Photo taken by my sister.)

I've been blessed with the chance to have had such great experiences in my career ranging from signing with Click Models to working for companies like Mervyn's and to having even been published in Retro Lovely Magazine back in October. I love being a plus model and a pinup model, because both have room to positively promote full figures. In fact, one of the things I love most about the classic 40s and 50s pinups is the fact they had curves and were praised for it. Back then, before the 60s saw the rise of uber skinny supermodel Twiggy, what we consider plus sizes now were embraced, loved, and even celebrated! In a world where negative self-image and body issues are on the rise among women young and old everywhere, we should try to remember the words of the great Sophia Loren: "Sex appeal is fifty percent what you've got and fifty percent what people think you've got." You don't have to have an hourglass figure in order to be a pinup wonder - a little red lipstick, a smile, and confidence go a long, long way! But in case you're curious, here are some great resources and inspiration to help you release the time-traveling temptress within!



(Left: Burlesque & the Art of the Teese cover feat. Dita by photographer Danielle Bedics.
Right: author Dita looking sweet and sophisticated for the camera, photographer unknown.)

Written by Dita Von Teese, perhaps my biggest inspiration and personal style icon. Dita is a powerhouse of beauty, brains, and business savvy. She has built an empire as a face for MAC cosmetics and as a voice for PETA, she is the current spokeswoman for Perrier, Wonderbra, and a noted muse for designers such as Jean Paul Gualtier and even my own favorites, Elie Saab and John Galliano! She is hailed as the modern pinup girl and is hugely responsible for bringing classic Burlesque back into the mainstream. She also puts Cher, Christina, and notorious faux-lesqueteers The Pussycat Dolls to shame! The thing I admire most about Dita Von Teese though is what she stands for and her message for women of all ages: love yourself, above all else.

Dita's book, Burlesque & the Art of the Teese is not only a warm look into the history of early and modern burlesque, but is also an autobiographical memoir and a guide to vintage glamour for any girl looking to embrace her inner vintage vixen. It is available for purchase at your local bookstore or online at her official website. (Signed copies are also available!) Expect to see a beauty book from Dita soon, as well, you can catch her performing live at The Roxy theatre in Los Angeles this Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. Tickets available at the Roxy Box Office or Ticketmaster.



(Left: Johanna modeling a fancy bow by Vinny & Vernelle. Center: Pinup Postcards
featuring Johanna, available for purchase on her Etsy store. Right: artwork by Johanna.)

27 year-old Johanna Ost is an artist, blogger, and fellow girl anachronism from Vallentuna, Sweden. In addition to writing and making things, she studies history and is also an 18th Century re-enactor! (You can check out her 18th Century Blog here!) This Blonde Bombshell has talent and style. She is the complete girl power package with Marilyn Monroe's hair, Marie Antoinette's bedroom, and an amazing wardrobe straight from a 1950s McCall's catalog. (And did I mention she had quite possibly the best costume this past Halloween? She was Debbie Jellinsky from Addams Family Values! Check out her hand-made costume here.) I adore her fanciful artwork and every time I look at it, I just want to get everything tattooed onto my body! Then I remember I'm deathly afraid of needles and how horrible it was just to get my nose done... Anyway! Her long-time beau Henrik takes all of her photos, he also designed and developed her adorable little website and blog. Johanna is another of my biggest inspirations and I'm sure she'll inspire you too!



(Left: Pin Up Girl Clothing "Violet" Dress in Pink and Black,
Right: Pin Up Girl Clothing "Violet" Dress in Pink and Black for Plus.)

A great place to find Vintage and Retro-inspired wear is Pin Up Girl Clothing! They carry a wide variety of dresses, seperates, swimwear, shoes and accessories (for women and men) in figure-flattering, curve-hugging styles from brands such as Pinup Couture, Deadly Dames, and Dixiefried. Perfect for every pinup girl! Whether you're a cheesecake cutie, a vivacious vamp, or a mad woman, Pin Up Girl Clothing has something for you! They are the premiere place to purchase pinup and also one of the few companies to proudly use plus models to promote their products and stock full figured sizes. Shop their online store or visit their blog.


Lucy B. Lingerie

(Left: Bernie Dexter for Lucy B. Lingerie "Sweet Tart" Matching Bra, Panties and Garter set.
Right: Lucy B. Lingerie "Gold Digger" Vintage-inspired Two-Piece swimsuit.)

Every pinup girl needs the proper under-pinnings and I can't think of a better place to get them than Lucy B. Lingerie! This woman-owned and woman-run company specializes in vintage-inspired 40s and 50s style lingerie that is affordable, durable, comfortable and cute all wrapped up in one. These aren't your grandma's bras and panties! (Or are they? ;D) Lucy B. Lingerie's retro reproductions are fit for any Pinup Glamour Girl or Burly-Q queen who is looking for fun, fabulous, and foxy underwear! Also, be sure to check out their Pinup of the Month section where they feature a pretty new pinup girl every month!



Aaaaand here are some of my favorite simple, easy-to-do hair and makeup tutorials to help you polish off your pinup look. (Perfect for vintage virgins and pinup style first-timers!)



Vintage Pinup Girl Makeup
by Amy B. of Ask Me Makeup

 



Pink Vintage Pinup Makeup
by Amy B. of Ask Me Makeup





Pin Up Rolled Bang (Faux "Bettie" Bang)
by ThePinUpSweetShoppe





Side-part Victory Rolls
by ThePinUpSweetShoppe





Barbie Ponytail
by ThePinUpSweetShoppe





No matter if you're a long-time fan of the style or a newbie taking your first peek, these are some great places to get a taste of pinuppery! If you're looking for something new and fun to try, I definitely suggest taking some inspiration from these fantastic femme fatales. You can't go wrong with classic vintage-inspired looks like these and they're a great way to feel glamtastically girly for just a special occasion or even every day!

Enjoy!

xoxo coco

P.S. Only 5 more days until I'm 21!!!